Today, I have cried and waited by the phone for you to call. I made my deadline seven and when you didn’t call, I made it nine, and then ten, then ten thirty, then eleven.
I wrote shitty poetry to make something beautiful out of the mess of paint you left me. Today I took a forty minute shower where I just stared at the ceiling. Today, I cried more.
Today I tried to be productive, but ended up scrolling old text and photos of us. Today I went on a heartbreak anonymous chat and listened to all the other hearts beat. I tried to believe them when they told me I didn’t deserve this.
Today I said your name and felt my chest collapse. Today I stared at my fan for an hour, watching it spin in the winter, but refusing to turn it off because it gave me a distraction.
Today I took off the ring and felt naked as I walked around. Today I kept searching for the missing part of me, realizing I hid it in my jewelry box. Today I watched old videos of us and cried at the sound of your voice.
11:00 And you haven’t texted. You haven’t called. You never listen, but today you did. Today is the day where I realized I need to let you go. Today is the day I was told I had so much time to live and today is the day I almost believe them.
Today is the day I wait again until 11:30