You asked me if we were okay & I paused
Not because I don’t love you,
But because I am trying to protect my heart.
I am learning to be cautious.
I have gotten my hopes up & waited too damn long.
I made excuses I let promises be broken
& gave second chances ten times over
hoping things would change if I held on a little longer
This time, I am trying to realize what I need.
I am not going to drain myself to fill you up
I need someone to fight for me
as hard as I fight for them.
You are my home.
But I will not kick myself out to keep you warm any longer.