If you haven't met me yet, good.
I'd like it to stay like that for a while, while I figure some things out. But if you have met me, there's some things I feel I need to clear before you get the wrong idea.
If you know me, you know I'm unapproachable. Believe it or not it's on purpose. So I assure you I'm not in a bad mood, I'm not trying to be rude, and I don't have a bad attitude.
I have walls, so I guess what I'm asking is for you to give me my accord, because I have bought too many times into dreams I couldn't afford.
I hope that you are secure enough to fill the gaps in my insecurities.
I hope that you are the type of man who when your friends ask you how your girl is doing you don't have to ask, "which one?
" I hope that we have a type of love where when people are asked what type of love they want they will always say this one.
I hope we have a love where you can be my opposite but at the same time my equal.
A love where we can be vulnerable, where even though you choose not to tell me about your transgressions you know that I forgive you, and I accept you, not as new,
but covered in the scars of everything you have been through because I know there is so much more that you can be, and I hope you can be just as forgiving when it comes to me.
A love where we don't have this incessant need to shout it from the rooftops to confirm how we feel, a love that is so low-key even I wonder if it's real.
I'm not saying I'm petty, but if you want to act funny, honey we can act hilarious. I'm not like other women you've met, I learned from the best.
I have dealt with men who were magicians who managed to pull disappearing acts from right before my eyes, so we can both play tricks.
I am the type of woman who can go to war with a man's ego armed with nothing more than blue ticks and I will win.
So I don't want to keep worrying about where my place is with you, if I'm third or fourth.
I want us to see the world beyond our insecurities and not have the only places we visit just being back and forth.
So before I sign off, some very important points to note: I hope you can cook.
You have to like Beyonce, I hope that you're patient, and I hope you understand that patience is not just the ability to wait, but the ability to keep calm while you wait.
So I'll need you to remember that especially when I can't decide what to wear or where I want to eat or how I want to wear my hair.
Love isn't always so demanding, sometimes it's just us, and sometimes we just have to vibe with it. So to my future husband, I don't want us to fall in love, I want us to try and rise in it.