How am I supposed to deal with all these emotions? Slowly coasting, costing me my sanity wishing for my mind to be at ease, all I seek is peace please.
Whenever it rains I think of you the child I never had, the dad I never became, whose to blame for all of this? Feelings change, mistakes made.
Too long I contemplate what if it were meant to be? Maybe mentally not in reality. when it rains for weeks I feel weak, my life seems bleak.
sometimes wishing for no emotion just so I could maintain motion, closest i'll get is some days i'll forget but when it rains memories flash and the pain is back.