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I lost my faith in everything



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Joost . 10 months ago
Sander Affirmative
I just became an uncle about two weeks ago because my sister had a baby. I made a rhyme with the first letters of his name and now elaborated a bit upon it to also reflect my own life. The first lette...
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Joost . a year ago
Fire and Ice
I miss you Annet
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Joost . a year ago
I Remember
If the one we love most leaves us we might find it hard to reallign
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Joost . a year ago
Getijdenstroom
Just a random Instagram conversation with myself
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Joost . 2 years ago
Dead by boredom
Every day I fall apart again of boredom. I don't know how to fill up this ever-growing void which is time. Love seems harder to come by as my mind keeps giving up on me.
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Joost . 2 years ago
Morning thoughts
Emptiness has conquered my mind once again. My emotions came back for a few months whilst psychosis took over my body. Now I’m back in the devil’s den. Once again no anticipation to any vacation. I ca...
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Joost . 2 years ago
Is this perhaps all a simulation?
Perhaps I even chose this particular life, and I went over all the details working it out meticulously
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Joost . 2 years ago
Depression settling in like sediment
My world is falling apart again I can't contain myself, I don't have a plan
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Joost . 2 years ago
New Year’s Confusion
The time of supposed elation is gone All that is left are the stars and the Sun
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Joost . 2 years ago
Suicune static
I've been sleeping like crazy today They pump me full with pills, I can't say nay
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Joost . 2 years ago
Tedious
It's Christmas. So much no anticipation, no elation. It's almost New Year's Eve, oh my god, not another celebration...
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Joost . 3 years ago
Anhedonia 2.0
Anhedonia: not being able to feel joy
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Joost . 3 years ago
The Fall
My caregiver and I decided to stay friends after she quit her job because we had a strong bond. After a couple of months she decided that she could not see me as a friend, but only as someone she had ...
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Joost . 3 years ago
If only
Come run away with me, to a place I'd rather be
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Joost . 3 years ago
Tragedy
Freeverse
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Joost . 3 years ago
Disaffect
After having strong suicidal tendencies I moved back in with my parents for a month, something which they were not too keen about to say the least
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Joost . 3 years ago
Katerveer
The Katerveer house, where my grandma used to live, and where her grandchildren roamed freely during their careless youth
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Joost . 3 years ago
Anhedonia
A brief description of what it's like to feel no joy anymore
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Joost . 3 years ago
Lost, to be found
A description of my current ordeal. A story of anhedonia and the hopelessness which comes with that territory
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