i shouldn’t have been surprised to be asked if i needed help.
my parents found me sleeping in a bowl of spaghetti, taking a depression nap in the fetal position on my floor, crying in the shower and then crying again in my bed holding your picture.
the closer to may it gets the worse off i seem to be and im not sure how to do this anymore. talking about it doesn’t help, being around friends doesn’t help. i want it all to go away.
i want you to be alive again. i want to stop feeling this sense of regret, these feelings of hopelessness, and this disgusting guilt. i should have been there for you and i’m so sorry that i wasn’t.
i hope wherever you are, it’s pain free. and that you’re with your grandfather and rambo. you deserved nothing but peace and happiness. your soul was so beautiful.
i will love you until i take my last breath, and at least i still have that. Rest In Peace, Dakota Tanner Haenel. you deserved nothing less than the best and i wish i could have given you more.