The next day I don't arrive to school dreading it. I feel invincible. I walk through the hallways without my headphones. I hear every name people call me.
All day I try not to let the comments get to me. For the most part, they don't. It's difficult, but I remind myself I'm strong, like Ava said.
As I dig for my keys in my bag, I feel the smooth surface of the purple journal.
I don't run to my car. I take my time. As I'm walking, Emma and her friends are standing there.
I take a deep breath and continue forward. I got this. This will be the time I stand up for myself.
"What do you want Emma." I stand tall and face them dead on.
"Oooh she's feisty today girls." Emma jokes.
"Move Emma" For the first time my voice is solid.
"Woahh, the freak has a voice."
"Yes, I do have a voice, and I'm going to use it. I used to let you silence me, but not anymore. You bully everyone. You think you're all that.
But I think you're a bully because you hate yourself. So that's why you bully me and everyone else instead of bettering yourself. But I'm done letting you bully me Emma.
You and everyone else at this school thinks it's okay to say rude and hurtful things and it's absolutely disgusting.
So, if I were you, I'd turn right around and walk away and never speak to me again."
Her jaw drops, she stands there, either in shock or embarrassment I don't know which.
"Come on girls, we have somewhere to be." She turns around angrily.
They walk away. This time they're not laughing. This time, I won.
Two weeks later
Emma hasn't said anything to me since I stood up to her. Nobody says anything to me anymore. Of course, the bullying hasn't stopped completely.
I still get the occasional insults, but nobody is stealing from me or dumping milkshakes on me so that's a plus.
I don't see other girls getting bullied as much either.
I don't think the bullying will stop completely, but I'm going to try to make that happen, even if that means finding people who are being bullied like I was, and talking to them one at a time.
Like Ava did for me.