My Biggest Secret
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This is not something that many people understand. I hope you read my story and see it firsthand.

My Biggest Secret

by zmcstories

If I had one thing to take the grave it would be this. So don't take it for granted and don't try to dismiss.

My secret.

I used to feel sorry for those that couldn't have a baby. I used to feel sad and think "thank God that's not me".

But I never knew how easy it would be. To take for granted what was not meant for me.

Any type of hope and longing for a family. Has now vanished, along with my sense of sanity.

When I was told that I had inherited a condition. That would inhibit the process of my reproduction.

I was numb, I was blue. I had given up on eating for two.

I did my research and medically there is still a way. However I would have to pay.

With my wallet, with my life. With the prospect of being a wife.

And yet I'm at the age where I'm still very young. But if I see a baby, my heart becomes stung.

You don't know how much you want to be a mother. Until you see the same fate go to another.

And there is no question of trying to conceive. When I can barely believe.

All my life I've hated being out of control. And this confession is baring my soul.

This is the secret that I have to bear. This is what keeps me up at night and leaves me scared.

But I don't need your pity, I don't need your sympathy. Just read my whole story and take what I say seriously.

I have not changed and I am not damaged goods. So don't try to run away or become misunderstood.

The only thing that you need to know. Is that sometimes I might feel low.

This is because being a mother may not be a possibility.

My secret is that my Infertility scares the shit out of me.

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3 months agoReply
@jasmincarter Thank you so much! I really appreciate your comment :D <3

3 months agoReply
Beautiful work, Zoe! My heart was in my throat reading this. xxx

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3 months agoReply
@michaldaphne Thank you so much :) I really appreciate this <3 Yes there is still a future of trying and hopefully I'll have a fighting chance!

3 months agoReply
oh my gosh <3 :( i can't image how you must feel, but iwish you happiness and it seems like at least there is still hope!

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3 months agoReply
@navynohwal30 I appreciate your empathy, thank you so much for your nice comment. I hope whatever you're longing for comes to you too.

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3 months agoReply
@bryanthomas Thank you so much, your virtual hug is appreciated :) I just have to hope for the future!

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3 months agoReply
take care. i cannot imagine your pain i m just 17. but i know how it feels to long for someone, something so bad. i get it. i wish the best for you.

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3 months agoReply
A virtual hug from me (zmcstories). I hope that one day you will become the mother you long to be, take care.

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3 months agoReply
@michaelschulze Thank you so much 😊 I appreciate the comments from Australia! I'm British so I'll have to have a look at my own circumstances 🙈

3 months agoReply
Infertility seems to be more common today there are many men facing the same thing witch becomes even more painful as people have a longer life span and i don't know where you are from but in Australia the waight list for adoption goes on for many years i wish you happyness in which ever way you can find it A great post of a modern age problem