I know it's real.
I find it a little embarrassing that I didn't know at first,
Caught up in clouds of confusion.
My head was swirling, and I could hardly see.
Avoiding texts, running away from the thought of you.
I could not bear it.
I didn't want to see a changed version of a person I've known forever.
I wasn't ready.
Burning in a fire of denial,
Breathing in the embers of charcoal lies.
I wanted things to stay the same.
I wanted to keep floating through the days, not having to think.
After all, there was enough on my plate.
Still, I finally realized that this feeling is heartfelt.
I don't know when I knew.
I tried to hide from it, but the truth never disappears.
Still...I was too late.
When I finally found acceptance, it was gone.
It didn't matter anymore.
You had moved on, and now I stand still.
How can I tell everyone now?
It's over now,
So let me hide it away.
I wish I knew that these thoughts were born with sincerity.
I should've been honest with myself,
But I was scared.
I'll be more careful next time.
Still, I can't leave you behind...
Still, I can't leave you behind... but you can leave me.
I need to let go, even if that means letting you float away.
Thanks for helping me change.