My heart hurts as I walk down my school halls. It is not the same without him. I open my locker and I notice a paper, folded beautifully. I carefully open it and notice it is a note, a handwritten note. A note to me
Alaia I see you, I see you all the time. I see you study day and night. You are always reading and smiling. I have something to tell you Alaia Wright.
My favorite color is Brown, it has not always been my favorite color but in June a few years back everything changed. Brown was just a color until I saw it in your eyes, now brown means so much more to me.
I see you Alaia, I see you all the time. I see you smile when I say something smart. I see you look at me from across the hall. I see you at all my football games, and I see you at my favorite Coffee shop. You do not think I notice you, but I do.
You are beautiful and I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. I wish we had more time my beautiful Alaia, but we do not. Tonight, I will be gone and never to be seen or heard from again.
I just wanted you to know that I loved you Alaia, even if you had no idea. I wish I had told you sooner. If I had told you sooner, maybe you would have pulled me out of this dark place.
Be happy Alaia, and I will be your dark angel watching over you, making sure nothing from the dark side harms you. Forever Yours ~Josh Braenon
I stare in the darkness of my locker and for a few seconds I feel him wrap his arms around me. The boy I have loved for four years, the boy who was always laughing and making jokes. I wish I knew he was dying on the inside, I wish I knew sooner.
Now it is too late, the darkness took him away from me, and he will never know how much I loved him too. I kiss the note and hold back the tears wanting to water my face. I smile at myself and since that day, the darkness has been my home, my safe place.
"Watch over me Josh, without you black is my favorite color." That is what I said to him when I stood over the grave with a black rose in my hand.
SIDE NOTE PLEASE TAKE CARE OF THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE. WATCH THEM AND CHOOSE TO NOTICE THE SMALLEST THINGS. THOSE WITH A HAPPY SMILE AND ALL THE JOKES, ARE NOT ALWAYS HAPPY.