Friends make fun of Friends, right?
Friends can make fun of Friends, because they're friends, right?
Friends can make fun of Friends, because they laugh at the jokes, right?
Maybe she laughs, because she has heard too many times the same sentence
"We're just joking. Laugh about it"
And she does.
Even when they offend her.
Even when she gets hurt.
All jokes have some true to them.
So she starts 'overreacting'
Getting lost in the same thoughts over and over again.
'Do they really think that?'
'Am I that bad?'
But that's not the worst
Because these are the 'good' thoughts.
She starts wondering
'Are those really my friends?'
'Do they ever miss me?'
'Do they only miss their punching bag, the person they can make fun of and knock down, because she doesn't defend herself?'
They forget she has feelings too.
They only acknowledge them when they step too much over the line.
They say that they're sorry, that they'll stop.
But they never do.
Because she keeps hiding those hurt feeling and low self esteem over a fake smile or a fake laugh.
Because she doesn't want to be the mood killer.
Because she likes making people happy.
Even though she's not.
They disregard her when she says they have hurt her.
They disregard her when she tries to speak up for herself, when she tries to make them understand.
Understand that it's not okay.
That she's sick of it.
Sick of the same jokes over and over again.
Sick of the hurt.
Sick of them.
So I ask again
Are these really her friends?