I’ll Always Be Alone
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treydates I’m just a guy who writes for fun
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What I've done is who I am, sadly,
but who I am is also what I do now.

I’ll Always Be Alone

Well here I am again.

Well here I am again. That feeling of being alone is oh so familiar...

Well here I am again. That feeling of being alone is oh so familiar... I never wanted to admit it, but deep down, I knew we'd never work

It just wasn't meant to be,

It just wasn't meant to be, It was a sad irrationality thinking that it would.

It just wasn't meant to be, It was a sad irrationality thinking that it would. Just like my reality.

It just wasn't meant to be, It was a sad irrationality thinking that it would. Just like my reality. So I can see why you'd be mad at me.

See my whole life I've been looking around for a person to share the pain with,

See my whole life I've been looking around for a person to share the pain with, A couple times I thought that person was found.

See my whole life I've been looking around for a person to share the pain with, A couple times I thought that person was found. But I was just played with.

See my whole life I've been looking around for a person to share the pain with, A couple times I thought that person was found. But I was just played with. Time and time again

You can't take anyone with you when you get buried underground...

I gave most of my boys a handshake or a pound,

I gave most of my boys a handshake or a pound, before watching them get either locked down or burried off on cemetery grounds

I gave most of my boys a handshake or a pound, before watching them get either locked down or burried off on cemetery grounds The others I used to know are either out in the marines shooting off their last round

I gave most of my boys a handshake or a pound, before watching them get either locked down or burried off on cemetery grounds The others I used to know are either out in the marines shooting off their last round Or they just aren’t around.

I've watched everyone that came in with me not make it.

While I continued my journey.

I left everything I cared about behind not too long ago.

I left everything I cared about behind not too long ago. I've left an old lifestyle behind only to learn a new one and leave that one behind also.

People come and people go

People come and people go Such as the cycle of life,

People come and people go Such as the cycle of life, So why am I in constant conflict with myself?

People come and people go Such as the cycle of life, So why am I in constant conflict with myself? Living through such strife.

99% of the things I did I couldn't even justify why they were done.

99% of the things I did I couldn't even justify why they were done. I guess my life was so meaningless and empty that I would risk everything for a couple minutes of fun.

Anything I do, it just seems like there's a magnet, trying to pull me back to my old lifestyle.

Relapse after relapse, I can never just get it right.

Relapse after relapse, I can never just get it right. I make these fake promises to myself saying that I won't do it anymore, and that I'll be alright,

but I just do it again a couple days later.

Then I end up lying to the people around me.

I never truly believed in addiction until now.

Its harder to quit than I thought.

It's hard to find a substitution when it's all you ever think about.

And quite frankly, I can't tell whether I let the people in my life down by lying to them constantly and hiding my vulnerabilities,

And quite frankly, I can't tell whether I let the people in my life down by lying to them constantly and hiding my vulnerabilities, or if I let myself down more by believing those lies I told and running away from my true responsibilities.

But that's the past now.

What I've done is who I am, sadly,

What I've done is who I am, sadly, but who I am is also what I do now.

What I've done is who I am, sadly, but who I am is also what I do now. I can't go back and change the past.

What I've done is who I am, sadly, but who I am is also what I do now. I can't go back and change the past. I can only pave a new path

What I've done is who I am, sadly, but who I am is also what I do now. I can't go back and change the past. I can only pave a new path and hope for a better future.

Day after day of staring at these white washed walls, it just reminds me,

Day after day of staring at these white washed walls, it just reminds me, .........

Day after day of staring at these white washed walls, it just reminds me, ......... I'm all alone till the day I die.

I’m a prisoner to my own thoughts.

Walking alone down this road,

Walking alone down this road, I carry nothing with me but the weight of the world

Walking alone down this road, I carry nothing with me but the weight of the world And my woes.

But even through my depression, and stormy nights,

But even through my depression, and stormy nights, I won't back down or cease to fight.

But even through my depression, and stormy nights, I won't back down or cease to fight. Through old ends and new beginnings,

But even through my depression, and stormy nights, I won't back down or cease to fight. Through old ends and new beginnings, Dead friends and bad decisions,

Life goes on, the world just keeps on spinning.

And I'm as savage as the passage of time

And I'm as savage as the passage of time I don't stop for anyone. No matter how many times you try to break me.

Yeah, I can’t lie, sometimes I feel close to suicide like she’s my best friend.

Yeah, I can’t lie, sometimes I feel close to suicide like she’s my best friend. Laying in bed sleeplessly at night wondering when it’ll just end.

I don’t know my purpose yet, but I won't stop until I found it.

I don’t know my purpose yet, but I won't stop until I found it. I’m learning to appreciate my struggles, for it would be hard to know the feeling of accomplishment without it.

I'm stronger than you could ever know,

I'm stronger than you could ever know, You’ll never physically see the pain I undergo.

I'm stronger than you could ever know, You’ll never physically see the pain I undergo. And I’m happy to continue my journey alone.

In conclusion,

I've watched my whole world crumble down in front of me. Everything I once loved is now gone.

I've watched my whole world crumble down in front of me. Everything I once loved is now gone. But I've learned to put on a straight face and carry the fuck on.

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