It's been months,
It still hurts.
Not a single day have I not thought
Of what we could have been right now -
Happy. Laughing. Goofing around like we used to.
I would tell you about my day
You would tell me about yours
We'd talk to each other as if 24 hours wasn't enough
We'd be happily lost in each other's company
You made me the happiest and most loved person I could ever be.
I wanted us to work, I really fought for us.
I really did.
But I guess we don't win all the time.
We almost made it. I really am sorry.
Now that I had the chance to talk to you again,
All I could say was,
It was such a beautiful and heartbreaking moment.
But I guess that's how love was ever gonna be for me,
A paradox of beauty and sorrow.
It felt good to connect with you again,
To the point that I didn't bother if I would get hurt again
To cry buckets of tears again after.
For this heart still beats and breaks only for you.
There were some things that were different including you,
I can't blame you if suddenly became cold
If our love was something you couldn't hold
but even though things felt different,
I knew you were still there.
Like you said before, "I didn't want to put an alcohol on a healing wound"
But still I'm grateful for you
Your presence has forever graced my life
For as long as I see you happy
For as long as we still have this friendship
That will be more than enough.
Thank you, love.
I'm sorry for loving you so much until now.