If I stay, will it be in vain?
If I stay, will there always be pain?
If I go, but where would I go?
If I go, but how would I survive?
If I stay, will there be a price to pay?
Oh, surely, but what bigger price than the sanity already lost? The scars etched on my heart and the beatings left under my skin?
If I go, will I even be happy?
If I go, will I make it out?
I left, yet the thoughts came again, you're not gone, you're still here, she's not gone, she's still here.
But where am I?
How do I find me?
If I stay, who will kill me first, you or I?
If I go, will I find a home, or will I be left to die, perhaps melt into the grass or evaporate into the sky?
If I stay, if I go, if if if..
If only I knew.