Then I finally woke up and realised i wanted to live before I died
not just survive .
I didn't want to do everything right anymore,
because it felt wrong and monotonous as hell.
I wanted to fuck things up a little,
just to see what would happen,
because i was so sick of always knowing.
I wanted to take a chance for once,
and stop hiding on the sidelines waiting for something to happen.
While I watched other people play the game and make things happen.
It was then I decided I wanted to play the game a little, and live a little before i died, not just survive.