Work, class, walking the dog, making food. These were the keys to my life.
Disruption. Yes, disruption. Looking back on it all this is the perfect word to describe it.
I still remember the fist around my lungs, clutching til I could hardly breath, when I got that call.
Your mother was crying. You're with your father, she had told me.
I remember breaking down in front of everybody in the store.. I remember being led into my car by my friend.
Most of all, I remember the fresh pain that came with the knowledge that I could never say goodbye.
I wanted to find the woman who had done this to you. To look her in the eye.
Why did she have to be drunk. Why did you have to drive on that street. Why did it have to be so dark that night. Why, why, why.
The funeral was filled with familiar people. People who had loved you.
I remember the struggle of trying to cry quietly as they spoke one by one. Of memories, of laughs, of fights.
I remember holding onto your mother. The black didn't fit her at all.
I remember speaking of all the ways you touched my life. How you always would.
Truth be told, I broke a little that day. I felt something inside me whither and break as they set you into the cold earth.
Slowly and gently, the song echoed within us all. Roses, daisies, and tulips were sent in after you.
I wonder if you were scared when everything went black. If you felt alone. If you felt pain.
I'll never forget you. You will always be there for me in more ways than I could ever count.
I miss you.
I love you.
Rest In Peace. I'll be there one day. We'll be united once again. Until then, keep your father and your grandmother company.
You three have so much to catch up on.
Forgive me, love, for never truly saying goodbye. Though you are gone, you aren't gone. Not really.
This is my goodbye to you. Thank you, for just being you. For being my friend. For loving me. I don't think I'll ever take this ring off.
I love you. More than the sky, the moon, the stars, and everything in between.
Sleep well, my angel, and remember all those who love you. You will never be forgotten.