Nov. 19, 2017 11:04am
It consumes me in the early morning sunlight.
It tortures me throughout the day.
Engulfing me in its thick, black fog.
The negativity in the darkness suffocating me.
Slowly, but surely.
It creeps up into my neck grasping it with its rotten fingers and squeezes it until I cannot breath no longer.
Until I'm sobbing in a corner, drowning in my tears.
Until I'm shaking with fear not knowing what will happen to me.
The anxiety filling my chest as I think someone is going to kill me.
I am that darkness.
I am the one spreading these nasty and hateful words to myself.
I am the one torturing and dehumanizing my brain.
I don't know.
I've been trying to figure that out myself.