by John Yarbrough
I sit in front of my council after a life of accomplished and unfinished deeds
Suggestions and agreements as we create the next life this soul needs
This is what I think about as I lay in the comfort of my bed
Sometimes the thoughts get too much, the pressure builds inside my head
Sometimes I get upset that I keep repeating the same cycle
I know these actions are wrong but it still plays like a recital
How many times have I chosen a different path?
1, 2, 3, 4, I can't even do the math
Plan a, b, c
A plan for the whole alphabet
Could I change my course completely, or is my life already set?
I believe in fate, but I also believe in free will
I have a tendency to give, but I am able to uncomfortably steal
I have a tendency to hold my truth, but I can still speak
To others, I appear strong, but sometimes I feel weak
I have a tendency to spend too much time at work
but rest and self-love are what I need
So, I look out to the universe and I question, "why this life?"
Why would I choose to encounter so much suffering and so much strife?
But for some odd and unfortunate reason, my life still feels right
I like to think I set up what I could handle and it's felt like lots
It takes time, but beauty grows from what decomposes and rots
So, I will stick it through and complete whatever it is I set out to do
I will do my best to offset this karma until my next soul's review
I am grateful for this life and I chose it for a reason
A lifetime seems like an eternity but only lasts for a season
This university of life, with many courses to choose from
It is always time to set out what we were meant to become