"So, what's next?" She said and seemed to think of nothing. I knew she was acting tough as best she could and it caused her tried-hard-not-to-cry face.
"What?" "Is there NEXT for us?" She always pretended to be look okay in front of me but the time, completely different which is so sadly diminished.
Her beautiful shoulder showed up from sheets. I softly embraced hers. We expected absolute NEXT more than future on our relationship every time.
Unbalanced, Unsure, Unintelligible It's just like me. "Okay, what are you thinking of want me to do next?"
As possible as I could, I acted with a smile nastily as usual so she seemed to have relieved. "Fool you." After that, she smiled.
I couldn't give her my future. Instead of, I gave her a card which will be destroyed my future. Perhaps, I will be killed by the card someday. This is my Proof of Love.
******* I was always alone. Of Course, I was loved by someone but I have never felt the love from the action what they gave me.
Love is a verb. The word have to follow the action. I could hear so many times something like "I love you" but I couldn't trust the word from bottom of my heart.
I thought I would be forever alone. But I met him. "Helplessly, I love you" He always said HELPLESSLY. I understood the means as IT CAN NOT BE HELPED.
It was true about our relationships. I had no choices because he always got them every time and I kept hoping which became suit thing for me.
The truth is, I got one choice, or one card. He couldn't throw a thing away and I am the one could break it away.
I won't never turn a card over. Love is a verb. The word have to follow the action. NOT ACT was my proof of love.
(I love you.) (I love you too.)