Laying on my bed staring at the ceiling.
Depressed, upset, lonely, and mad are what I'm feeling.
Staring so long while the darkness closes in.
These are the feelings I feel as I go to bed.
Cold and numb and so very alone.
"Now this is another broken home."
Trust is lost feelings are dead.
I'm constantly battling memories stuck in my head.
Times were rough and the pressure was on.
Now another family misses someone they love.
Listening to the echos of sounds in the dark.
These demons are heavy and followed me from the start.
Smiling at everyone but really lost my mind.
How the hell did all this happen is such a short time?
Asking God why could this be?
"Just Please have me crash and lose all these bad memories."
As I sit here quietly deep in the shadows.
My demons tell me "you, we will always follow.
So say your prayers all you want.
We've strapped ourselves onto you and now your stuck."
Shivers run down my spine
As if i was hearing them for the very first time.
I get off the bed to walk to my mirror
To see 4 demons wrapped and hanging on my shoulders.
Staring at each one with a heart full of hate.
I've tried running from them before I even left the state.
But there's no going back for things that occurred
Til this day I still feel these demons following me like hungry vultures.
Waiting for me to snap so they can be set free.
I fight my actions everyday cuz anyone can be next once they leave me.
They're far from friendly but at the same time love to laugh.
As the things happened I could hear them laughing while they clapped.
I drink and smoke my sorrows away
As they hang on my shoulders laughing and clapping as they wait.