Asusual , i was too excited to meet her, but she wasn't picking up .
My heart started to beat so fast , an unknown fear grabbed me , I was trying to convince myself, thinking maybe she is doing something or taking shower.
I decided to go near her house and then call her again. Ravi asked me,"when will you go"."Let's go" , I replied, assuming she will come. We stopped in the parking ,near the statue.
Ravi was waiting for his girlfriend and I was staring at my phone , hesitating to call her ,but somehow I managed to dail up. She picked up!!!! "where are you" , I asked .
"Aren't you coming???"
"Why, is something wrong???
"No, just not in mood, i am a little busy,can i talk to you later?"
she hanged up.
Slowly a bad feeling started to torment me.Ravi was gone a moment ago, I was alone standing near the bike, confused and hurt. I easily get emotional and hopes up .
I always expect too much from other people and that strikes me back like a lightning bolt.
I always try to hide that side of me , no one even knows i am that emotional , I always pretend to be the tough guy , most of the people even say that I am a heartless person ,
but i know i am a fucking emotional fool !!!! Who gets too attached to anyone ,even after knowing it's gonna hurt like hell!!
"STOP THINKING YOU IDIOT"
"THAT'S NOT GONNA HELP"
"YOU CAN HANDLE THIS"
"YOU ARE SMART , NOBODY CAN HURT YOU, STAY CALM!!!! YOU IDIOT!!!!!!"
I was struggling with myself. I thought i should go back to my room , what will i do there ?I will start thinking about about her and that's gonna hurt .
I decided to take a walk to clear my head . I put on the earphones and start walking . I made peace with my mind and convenienced myself maybe she is upset ,her mom might have railed her.
I was thinking about places Ravi told me ,where he made out with his girlfriend. He suggested me to take Alisha there.
I made my mind to check out few places as i was alone and had nothing to do so that tomorrow there will be no waste of time ,when i will come with Alisha.
I checked out a few places then came back on ring road. I was thinking again...
"DID I SAY SOMETHING UNUSUAL"
"MAYBE IT WAS THAT MEME "
"I SHOULDN'T HAVE SEND IT TO HER"
" MAYBE LAST NIGHT I HAVE GONE TOO FAR"
" OR I AM GOING TOO SLOW"
" I SHOULD HAVE KISSED HER"
"TOMORROW I DEFINITELY WILL"
Last night we were sitting on the rocks in psr, it's a place in campus where couples make out and have sex, You can always find a heap of used condoms there.
she was in my lap , I was holding her hands,she was talking and was looking at her, so many thoughts were poping im my mind.
I wanted to kiss her but i was freezing inside, her beautiful legs in shorts were making me more nervous. She untied her hair , that was the moment when I was completely lost in her .
i was holding her back ,my fist was closed . I was dying to touch her curvy back but aslo too afraid to do that . After an hour of thinking i dared to touch , she didn't react.
That was relief. I was imagined, she slapping me for that , but nothing happened. It felt like heaven on earth. It was the best day in last few months.
It thought to kiss her but i realized that it was enough for today.
I completed two rounds and it was my last round of walking on ring road, i was a little upset . Ananya called me to come at parking, she and Ravi were waiting for me. I started to move faster.
Then i saw a girl with a guy holding his hand , and laughing. She gasped and tried to hide her face. I recognized those shoes and dress."IT WAS HER ". THAT'S ALISHA.
"WHAT THE HELL IS SHE DOING WITH HIM??"
"WHO IS THAT GUY ??"
"WHY DID SHE TRY TO HIDE."
"SHE COULD TELL."
"WHY SHE HAD TO LIE."
"My whole world collasped ". I felt betrayed. My eyes were burning, I wanted to cry. I was angry and wanted to beat the shit out of someone.
Then I saw Ravi and ananya waiting for me, as was coming closer to them, i managed to stay calm.
"Where is your girlfriend??" Ananya asked.
(That lined hurted me like a sword was inside my heart.)
"She is not my girlfriend."I replied.
"Well she will be soon , no girl can say no to my cute devarji."
"This is bullshit, i am not stupid"
"Where is she??"
"At home", I lied .
" Let's go there."
"No!!! Are you crazy."
"What's crazy in that, call her , we all will go for ice-cream together like a double date."
"No, not today it's too late . she is not allowed to go out after 12 o'clock. It's 11:30 already. We will go some other day."
"Okay! we three will go then."
I did go with them . Ananya was annoying me on the way with her plans for me and Alisha. She was too excited for me. I didn't know how to tell her there is nothing to be excited about.
She was planning for me to propose Alisha and here I was struggling inside to not to cry.
" Why are you upset devarji, she will come tomorrow??"
(Not every girl is like you Ananya, Ravi is lucky to have you, he should marry you)
" I am fine." I replied with a fake smile .
I came back to my room . I saw two texts from Alisha.
"How are you?"
"Where are you?"