I don't know what would happen for certain
If I let the emptiness with me awaken
Would it cripple my soul?
Tear apart my whole?
If I let the darkness within me reign
Would it leave me in endless pain?
Or perhaps my feelings would subside
If only nothingness was left inside
I am captivated by it
The hollowness that consumes me bit by bit
Unbidden it entices me
The thought that I might be free
Free from the crippling loneliness
Free from the numbing sadness
And yet the thought of it scares me
Like a vast and raging sea
The thought that this might be it
That I could end it with just a slit
Still I clutch myself for support
Begging myself not to stop short
Just a few centimeters more
And I won't have to feel anymore
No more pain, no more sorrow
I'll be no more than hollow