I've been with Leah for 2 years and we were due to get married. I stupidly cheated on her with someone I met through work and have honestly never felt more ashamed and guilty in my life.
I love this girl more than anything, she has been my rock through my drinking problem, my anger issues, I just really cannot believe how lucky I am/was.
We lost a baby that was wanted and planned for about 2 months ago and since then everything kind of went down hill.
She became incredibly clingy and insecure, snappy, depressed and could hardly get out of bed.
She ended up taking an overdose a few weeks ago and finally was put on to some medication through her doctor.
The girl I cheated with had been messaging me for a few days before. I ended up deleting my Facebook app to hide it from Leah because I knew it was inappropriate.
I had a lunch where this girl had been in attendance and we ended up alone after everyone went home.
I ended up going home with her, making out in the taxi and then making out some more back at her place. I ended up going home to Leah before heading to a hotel to clear my thoughts.
She figured it out. She confronted me and I admitted it. She moved out, started therapy, started excercising, started doing amazingly well at work.
It's like the girl I fell in love with is back again.
I think there's a chance she will take me back, but do I deserve it? She has the most beautiful heart and has loved me despite all of my awful treatment of her.