I'm on an endless cycle.
Everyday I grieve my lost dreams and hopes.
Until I fall in a puddle of my tears that deeper then people see.
Sinking to the bottom my demons grab and pull me down farther.
i'm grasping for the top just wanting to breath one more breath of happiness but I inhale an intoxication of depression and loneliness.
lost in this pain I go back to old habits. The bleaching of red mixes with the stinging of steel on my upper arms and stomach.
The demons calling it "love marks"
"JUST LET ME GO" I cry but they don't and ever will that is until I don't hesitate anymore...