Suffocation. My breathing hastens
As your voice echoes on the room
Silence. Nothing else mattered.
I don't know what to feel
I don't even know if I do feel
Time slows down
My knees shamefully cower
while my hands are frozen
Your smug confidence,
your mere presence,
It makes me want to be a better man.
Someone who could have done more.
Someone more competent
Someone you would never be ashamed of.
I'm sorry I was incompetent
I'm sorry I couldn't have done more.
I'm sorry I couldn't have been more.
I'm sorry I've been scared.
I'm sorry I was scarred.
I'm sorry I became a mess.
I'm sorry you wouldn't even dare look at me.
I'm sorry because I never blamed myself
and I'm sorry that I never will.
You were too high up that you never once looked down.
And that was your mistake.