it comes in waves, like riptides. swallowing me whole like shots of whiskey. the sea drinks me down and I pour myself onto the shore.
the numbing disassociating pain of tsunami heartbreak.I am crushed into salty fragments. sinking, with no intent of coming up for air.
i’ve felt love.
it was a burning city. the walls I built were crashing down.I watched abstract emotion tear me, limb from limb. past lover from past lover.
until I was clean and white and perfect. I was gentle and trusting.
until the day my chest caved and eyes poured like waterfalls, I was drowning in my own disillusion. the city flooded, I was damaged goods. never to be clean and white and perfect again. now I float in the ocean I have cried. like alice in a glass bottle.
and it comes in waves, like riptides.