When was the last day when I was sober?
Was it even this year?
I don't remember.
I don't wanna be this way.
But I also don't see any other way.
I'm swimming in these drugs.
They are my only purpose...
They are the only reason that I'm still alive.
I feel numb and happy when I'm high.
But when I'm sober everything in my life seems wrong...
Is really everything wrong?
Is there a way out of this mess?
Because if it is, I don't wanna know it.