These are the things I feel when I think about growing up.
These are the things I'm scared to become.
Heart pounding in my chest.
Thoughts running through my mind.
The only thing I'm scared of is myself.
I'm my worst enemy, caught in the bubble of the dreams I created, the bubble that is my safe place.
Right or Wrong?
Heart or Conscious Mind?
In constant battle with myself.
What do I want? What am I so afraid of?
The Answer: Everything. Nothing.
Too much pressure, yet it feels like no one truly cares.
If someone cares it doesn't feel like it's enough.
Nothing can please me and yet when I'm doing nothing I just want to feel like I'm alive.
Following the path that's been given me, yet questioning whether it's the right one to take.
Closing my eyes.
Catching my breath.
Open my eyes and see the world as it is and not as I'd like it to be.
There's a lot going on.
Darkness over Darkness over Darkness.
There's a light shining through.
Because there's always a light.
It's okay to be afraid. Nervous. Terrified.
They're feelings and feeling things is what makes us human.
Don't worry to be a failure, a disappointment.
Don't worry about making mistakes.
You can't always please everyone and not everything you touch will turn into gold.
Sometimes it turns into ashes and you've got to learn that it's okay.
Believe. Live. Laugh. Love.
Fall. Cry. Scream. Fight.
Do what you want to do.
Have to do.
But never give up.
Always look up.
You always question something and things don't always go well all the time.
You don't always need to know the answer.
Don't hide away and make the best out of it. Breathe.