As I tore into my skin
As I tore into my skin I experienced peace in my mind
For the first time.
Like an addict
Like an addict I kept going back to this.
This pain i inflicted on myself
Had become one of my favourite drugs.
When the silence around me became static noise in my head
Pain kept me company
Pain kept me company and softened the white noise.
I cannot hate pain.
It is what keeps me alive.