I was in an abusive relationship with my Anxiety.
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rebeccajadeWattpad writer & singer.
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Anxiety can be beautiful.

I was in an abusive relationship with my Anxiety.

by rebeccajade

You snuck into my mind and whispered negative words until eventually; it was all I could hear.

...resulting in me feeling like I was drowning in your hateful words.

Not only did you make me do things against my will; you made me want to do those things.

...resulting in me hating myself for letting you do that to me.

To keep you happy; I listened to everything you said and I did everything you screamed at me to do.

...resulting in me hating everything and everyone around me for not understanding why I was doing this to myself.

I was both physically and mentally drained trying to keep you happy; trying to give you what you wanted.

...resulting in me hating myself because I could never make you happy.

Until one day, I woke up and realised I didn't want you to control me anymore.

...resulting in me feeling as though a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.

It was my choice; I was finally taking back my life and controlling it for myself.

...resulting in me feeling better about myself.

It took time but I finally got over you, I learned to take what you did to me and turned it into something positive.

...resulting in me feeling proud of myself.

Now; it's been over a year and although I think about you every day, I'll never let you take over my life again.

...resulting in me finally being happy about who I am.

I was in an abusive relationship with my anxiety for over two years.

...resulting in me hating the very world I lived in.

I got myself out of that relationship.

...resulting in me loving myself and the world around me.

You can do it too.

It doesn't matter if it takes you two months, or two years. What matters is; you can do it.

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ShawtyRhymesSugar and spice and stuff
a year agoReply
Written out beautifully!

brieflyfeltwhats spoken is teenange emotion
a year agoReply
this is amazing. remembering my own relationship with my own anxiety and now reading about yours makes me proud that we both ended them with succes. its possible for everyone to win that game. this is inspirational. congrats and enjoy the free world of hurtfulness

bernardtwindwilGold CommaGranddad & story teller, tomthepo8.com
a year agoReply
Beautiful sentiment and is true. Your verses were compact. They were rhythmically metered and the words were descriptive so that this poem is a masterpiece. Your message is resonant for anyone who has been overwhelmed by their own anxiety.

veniceBronze Commatwitter: @muyven
a year agoReply
you are very inspiring and keep loving yourself 💛💛

benjSilver CommaStoryteller
a year agoReply
i just want to clap and give you a hug

_notlikeothers_Bronze CommaNotLikeOtherPeople🎈
a year agoReply
This is very inspiring... I love it!!