You never recover after you lose someone you love, but I never imagined how hard it hits you the pain of missing that person.
When you realize you'll never see him/her again, not now, not tomorrow, not ever again. S/he will never walk on that door to say "Hello!".
And the pain of missing that person will only grow stronger, it takes only one second to hit you in the heart, to take your breath away.
And the flashbacks that follow make you choke in every tear that flows on your face...