have you ever forgotten
how to feel a feeling?
i'm pulling seaweed fingers through my brain
trying to remember that day.
there was sun.
i remember she was hurting.
i remember she was scared.
(wash away your hate, baby, i'll teach you not to feel pain)
she said, you aren't alive without pain,
you can't lose yourself, baby, god'll give you away.
i told her i don't want heaven.
and god watch me,
i'll forget to feel.
i'll only be happy.
just fucking watch me.