We've been friends for how long?
And there has always been a part of me that desired you.
And then, I thought, Wow!
He actually likes me!
I can't believe this!
I'm so ecstatic!
This is all I've ever wanted..
I then realize.
It's not me, That you like.
It's my body, That you crave.
To have, To use, For pleasure.
And I know, You meant no harm by this.
And I myself didn't see the harm in this, At first.
But now? There's only that, That I see, And feel.
The harm being done, Within.
And I can't decide.
Whether or not I want this to continue.
Because what I really wanted was you
Your true self, And that's not what I'm receiving.
That's the only thing, That I wanted, But never got.