At the mercy of my issue, I remain in isolation, too afraid to reach out.
The need to socialize with someone unknown to me is horrifying.
Meant to be enjoyable, and yet they cause me nothing but panic attacks.
Echoing louder and louder inside my head, making me seek protection in a hidden place.
I become numb, crying and shaking out of the fear caused by the noise.
Stream endlessly along my face, with no sign of stopping.
Unable to move or think clearly, I remain, unable to do anything.
Becomes harder, as I gasp and choke, unable to remain calm.
Overtakes me as my panic causes me to disappear into an abyss, the only place I can go, the only place I can escape to.
I awaken rested, balancing only on the calm around me.
The same scenario, over and over again, with nothing to stop it.
Is what haunts me on a daily basis, with no real escape.