shine a light in my eyes (and you might learn the truth)
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overandover
overandover I write to put together my broken pieces
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the layers start to crumble.

shine a light in my eyes (and you might learn the truth)

I am a girl hiding behind a mask,

I am a girl hiding behind a mask, so goddamn afraid of showing a kind stranger the real me

I am a girl hiding behind a mask, so goddamn afraid of showing a kind stranger the real me that the image must first be developed under a scrutinizing eye to ensure that you get exactly the right impression,

I am a girl hiding behind a mask, so goddamn afraid of showing a kind stranger the real me that the image must first be developed under a scrutinizing eye to ensure that you get exactly the right impression, skinny, attractive, just unconfident enough that you can find it hot.

I am a girl hiding behind her hair,

I am a girl hiding behind her hair, hoping bright shades of blue will cover up the utter boringness that is me,

I am a girl hiding behind her hair, hoping bright shades of blue will cover up the utter boringness that is me, brown and pale and unable to open up to anyone, not even pixels on a screen.

I am a girl hiding behind her laugh,

I am a girl hiding behind her laugh, letting people make jokes at my own expense, making a couple of my own and laughing everything off,

I am a girl hiding behind her laugh, letting people make jokes at my own expense,

I am a girl hiding behind her laugh, letting people make jokes at my own expense, making a couple of my own and laughing everything off, trying my very best to distract you so you won‘t notice my crumbling interior.

I am a girl hiding beneath foundation,

I am a girl hiding beneath foundation, concealer, bronzer, blush, highlighter, eyeshadow and mascara,

I am a girl hiding beneath foundation, concealer, bronzer, blush, highlighter, eyeshadow and mascara, applied every morning in a routine that l’ve learned to do with my eyes closed,

I am a girl hiding beneath foundation, concealer, bronzer, blush, highlighter, eyeshadow and mascara, applied every morning in a routine that l’ve learned to do with my eyes closed, mostly so that I can avoid looking in the mirror.

I am a girl sick of hiding,

I am a girl sick of hiding, but too afraid to take the first step out of the shadows,

I am a girl sick of hiding, but too afraid to take the first step out of the shadows, so I wait until the sun shines on me,

I am a girl sick of hiding, but too afraid to take the first step out of the shadows, so I wait until the sun shines on me, burning my mask,

I am a girl sick of hiding, but too afraid to take the first step out of the shadows, so I wait until the sun shines on me, burning my mask, singeing my hair,

I am a girl sick of hiding, but too afraid to take the first step out of the shadows, so I wait until the sun shines on me, burning my mask, singeing my hair, melting my makeup until it pools at my feet.

Until only I remain.

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