Why can I only write when I’m in pain?
why are the words never there for the times I’m happy?
Why can’t I express the joy I feel?
Why can I only write when I’m ready to close off my soul and enter the numbness that takes the pain of you away?
I can’t express the happiness seeing your name brings me.
The way you make me feel when you shine your light on me.
Why can I never tell you how much you fulfil me?
Why does it only matter when it's gone?
My heart beats uneven now, I can barely stand the days… and I’m lonely at night.
I love you.
But my heart only understands how much when you're gone.
When your light has gone.
That’s the only time I realise that I can’t be me without you.
I only exist in your light.
Now you’re gone again, and my heart is done.
my dear light...
you have left me cold and lonely once again...