The feeling I got when he died I’ve experienced before with the death of my father. So I wrote this piece for them
Kidneys & Lugs
To my father who left so early on I wish I could have given you my lungs the ones you destroyed with smoke in that smoke you choked and all our hearts you broke.
To my second father the one who doesn’t have my blood the one who left when our world was a flood
I wish you’d lived longer Not only for me, but for my sister who is only five who doesn’t understand why in the last months of your life you couldn’t kiss her.
To you I would’ve given you my kidneys even though for so long you did was tease me. I know it came from a place of love and i hope you’re greeted by the guy above.
These parts I take for granted I do not deserve now I’m haunted thinking what would’ve happened if I had the nerve.
About my life I never cared but without you both in my life I’m left so scared all the things I did to destroy myself I take back
I’ll give it all, I’ll wrap it in black everything I’ll give to you two Take my beating heart too.