I must’ve done something that caught your attention. You were vivacious and attracted everyone around you like moths to a bright light. Not me.
I was quite the opposite therefore, I stood clear of you. That could possibly have been the source of your curiosity.
I had become prey to an unsuspected predator.
One that caught the eyes of every person in any room.
Still, the first time around I was naive. Distant. Incapable of foreseeing any impending affliction.
You told me that I was a book being written by the world’s favorite author.
You didn’t have difficulties in gaining my friendship. You spoke sweetly to me.
You told me that I had slipped into your daydreams every so often.
Then you told me you had to leave.
It wasn't long after until I had caught a glimpse of you on the lower west side.
It was blurred and quick as if I had the vision of a man who had too much to drink.
But still, I knew it was you.
I decided to confirm it and put an end to my self-questioning. So I followed the blur that led me to you
and him holding hands.
All ten fingers interlocked within one another while your other hand tightly grips a brown grocery bag with tall sunflowers poking out of it.
This looming feeling of misery caught me by surprise. I believe you introduced me to this new emotion.
I said nothing about what I had seen to you until now. And I am not using it against you or for pity.
Just for clarity. To give a reason for why this time I seem indifferent.
about a year later you returned back. Reciting the new slang you had learned from another. Dressed as though you’ve lived an entirely new life.
You find me again.
I reasoned with myself and decided that everyone deserves a second chance.
Not long after your reappearance,
you left again.
This time there wasn't even a good-bye.
I was dumbfounded by your capability of of breaking a single heart twice.
Which is why now that you stand here in front of me again entirely reinvented.
Years after you had left for the second time in my lifetime.
Imposing your loose hugs and idle jabber.
I finally understood that you were only to be a memory in my life.