I never really noticed him until it was too late...
his captivating smile and charm had caught some other lonely girl before I even knew his name
I made up my mind in that moment
why set up your gullible heart with someone who didn't see you the way you saw them
but with every breath he drew and all the support he gave;
my heart wouldn't listen to me anymore
the closeness of us grew; I learned his hobbies and dreams
and he learned mine
intense conversations brewed and I was putting all
my soul into a future that didn't exist.
at times he made me feel like I was the one he loved
but he would always come back to her, whether I expected it or not
but still my heart longed for him when I closed my eyes
all I could picture was him kissing me, and telling me that I was enough
I'm being controlled by my desires
I cannot imagine a life without him; Is this lust? love?
why do I still crave him in my need, when I could be
out there living my life with someone who loves me more than I will ever know...
this black pit of love is pretty deep, I'm not sure how to
emerge from its grasping hand;
maybe life is better
out on dry land.