My First Log, not the beginning - 26/6/18
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TRIGGER WARNING - contains distressing thoughts. Taken from my first log on an app called 'Moodpath'. God, why am I doing this.

My First Log, not the beginning - 26/6/18

I'm the problem My brain is the problem

I want to talk, I want to get help, I NEED It but I only sound like a precious little fucking snowflake that doesn't really have anything wrong with them and are just really fucking over sensitive to criticism and are a lazy little shit who won't get anything done and then just cries about it like nothing is their fault and they need help.

I'm trapped IN MY OWN FUCKING HEAD

But I don't deserve anything

But I don't deserve anything But I don't need THIS

But do I even deserve to get rid of it OF COURSE I DO NO ONE SHOULD SUFFER LIKE THIS BUT AM I JUST BEING A LITTLE SHIT AND BLOWING EVERYTHING OUT OF PROPORTION.

WHY

WHY WHY

WHY WHY WHY

WHY WHY WHY WHY

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

people have it so bad I don't have the right to feel like this ' oh look at me with my mildly inconvenienced life which makes me not want to exist anymore even though I don't really have any problems

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING INSANE WHEN I CAN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING SO THE LEAST MY BRAIN CAN DO IS CHILL THE FUCK OUT

I DON'T NEED THIS

I DON'T NEED THIS I DON'T WANT THIS

I DON'T NEED THIS I DON'T WANT THIS IT NEEDS TO GO

I DON'T NEED THIS I DON'T WANT THIS IT NEEDS TO GO I CANT COPE

I DON'T NEED THIS I DON'T WANT THIS IT NEEDS TO GO I CANT COPE I CANT

I DON'T NEED THIS I DON'T WANT THIS IT NEEDS TO GO I CANT COPE I CANT IT CANT STAY

I DON'T NEED THIS I DON'T WANT THIS IT NEEDS TO GO I CANT COPE I CANT IT CANT STAY ITS BEEN HERE TOO LONG

I DON'T NEED THIS I DON'T WANT THIS IT NEEDS TO GO I CANT COPE I CANT IT CANT STAY ITS BEEN HERE TOO LONG THIS IS NOT ME

THIS

THIS IS

THIS IS NOT

THIS IS NOT ME

GO

GO AWAY

LEAVE

LEAVE MY

LEAVE MY BRAIN

LEAVE MY BRAIN ALONE

LET

LET ME

LET ME FEEL

LET ME FEEL NORMAL

LET ME FEEL NORMAL WHY CAN'T I

I SOUND LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT

WHY AM I LIKE THIS

CAN IT GO

CAN IT GO CAN IT

CAN IT GO CAN IT NOW

CAN IT GO CAN IT NOW PLEASE

FUCKING PLEASE LEAVE

And I still can't talk it's still in my head I look fucking fine Why do I look fine?? Why do I fucking look ok????

How the fuck can I still laugh

How the fuck can I still laugh I don't feel it

How the fuck can I still laugh I don't feel it I don't fucking feel it

And when I do Is there ANYTHING FUCKING WRONG WITH ME

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