I patiently waited as she was going to reply to my question, "What gender role do you consider yourself?
" The three typing dots started to move like a caterpillar and my stomach filled with butterflies went wild. Suddenly they stopped and the green dot of her being online, disappeared.
I thought I offended her and maybe she was going to give me a big lecture about people's privacy. I still had kept the chat open in front of me and was patiently waiting.
Then it dawned on me, her haircut, her being considered "the weird one" in my class (not by me though),
her not having a crush on any one of the boys from my class and her every type of behavior made sense.
I always used to tell her that this boy is cute, that boy is cute, or whatever, but she never replied to me.
She would just go "hmm" or "is he?" Back then I used to think that her choice was way different than mine or I used to think that she doesn't feel comfortable talking like that.
You know, when girls talk about a boy, they literally discuss every tiny detail, like how his t-shirt suits him, how the color appreciates his skin color, how his hair bounces with the wind,
how they wish they were his mirror to see him every day.
So whenever me and her would talk, I would expect the same thing, but she never went "totally" or "oh my gosh, girl, look at those calf muscles"
Today morning I had put up a story on my Instagram creating awareness between people about those stickers you get to decorate your story.
People were randomly using the 'pride' stickers on irrelevant things. So I cleared the confusion saying "These are the pride month stickers and not some funky colorful stickers.
Stop using them on a snap of your pastas or if you bought a new computer" She replied on that story, "but the pride month is over" with a bunch of crying emojis and many sad emojis.
Then we chatted and further I asked the question. She replied me tonight at around 10, "I would prefer not to tell, but it is you, and I am me. So....I...am....Trans" and then she went offline.
She is not online for like 2 hours.
I just wanted to say that I am not gonna judge her,
I am not gonna unfriend her over being herself and I am also not gonna create this negative image that people create about the LGBTQ community.
I wanted to say that whenever she gets the love of her life and I hope she does because she deserves one, she should remember that Love is water - it is clear,
it flows through everyone and can fill anyplace. Love is love and it is water.