Do you ever feel like you are going to fall?
That at any moment the floor will fall out from under you and you will vanish again.
So you lay flat and try not to move,
hoping that maybe,
possibly the abyss won't find you again.
That maybe it will skirt over you.
Skipping you this time.
This feeling reminds me of when you fall in a dream,
and all of a sudden you wake up, your heart racing,
you feel like you shouldn't be alive,
you are confused and terrified.
Then you are afraid to fall asleep again because what if you fall again.
That is how this feels except I am afraid of living.
What if I fall but I don't get up this time.