I was one of the few people who experience being compared to someone
I am ugly at the same time, overweight
I wasn't like this before, I was thin, slim and petite girl
However, as I grew older, my stress cause my body to gain more weight
I don't usually like to eat and most likely, I skip my lunch or dinner
Therefore, I get sick easily and prone to gastric ulcers
I was always brought to the hospital and that cause to much trouble for my parents
So I try to exercise, jogging, walking, and even lifting heavy things, just to be healthy
Not just to become healthy but to become thinner just like before.
However, I didn't obtain what I really wanted to have
Effort without discipline is but a vague actions without a good result
I became more fatter and chubbier.
My neighbors begun to tease me.
That was when they started to compare me.
Even my parents looks at me as if saying 'we spoiled her too much that we suffer in shame'
Apparently, this is my fault, I'm not the type of person who is very into physical activities and resulted me into like this. But what if this is really me? What if I can't change it?
Body standard become rampant as society grow more fund into Korean Idols.
They start to become very subjective.
When you are not as thin as those idols, then you are not pretty
When you are not as white as those idols, then you are not handsome
When you are not as talented as them, then you are not a human
Yes, that is how our generation grow.
We don't need to blame idols, because they are just giving us inspirations and entertainment
But rather, we blame ourselves for comparing others to be like them.
Standard keep us being insecure over someone we shouldn't.
Be yourself, accept yourself and you will know your value.
That is how you should live.