Seeing as I write about self injury and depression and all that jazz, saying this is something serious is kind of a joke. But I really want people to read this and take it to heart.
At least my fellow self harmers.
I won’t go into details, but I got triggered and started self harming pretty intensely. I had a knife and went to make a cut basically on my shin, but the knife didn’t break the skin.
So I pressed harder and slid it fast and my flesh opened like a zipper, blood pouring out. My sock was completely red. I mean completely. This scar is huge and I should have gotten stitches.
It made my wife cry when she saw it.
After about a week of it not really getting better at al I went to the doctor who said it was infected and now I am taking antibiotics. I’m going to have to explain these scars to my kids.
Believe me I know how hard it is to quit. But this cut scared me and I haven’t cut since.
If one person can learn from this story, and stop before pressing that blade down, then it is worth it to me.
Don’t wait until your doctor has to give you antibiotics. I’m telling you right now that you deserve to be loved and to love yourself. It is okay to love yourself.
And whether or not you feel it, I am here, and I Iove you. I truly do. So send me a message if you need. I will listen. But join me, let us stop injuring ourselves.