Effexor, for depression three hundred milligrams.
Wellbutrin, for drive, three hundred milligrams.
Rexulti, for mood, three milligrams.
Mirtazapine, for sleep, forty five milligrams.
Klonopin, for anxiety, one milligram.
Hydroxyzine, for anxiety, seventy five milligrams.
Weekly. With homework. Writing. Working on me.
Monthly psychiatric visits. Mostly by phone.
Huge costs. Change is hard.
Meds help, hate needing them.
Still not enough. Still want to cut. Still feel insane.
Hanging in there. Feeling bipolar. Think I have a bit. Tired, so tired, but still going.