Cut cut cut!!!
The voice yells inside my brain.
No no no!!!
The other yells back.
I need my blood out now.
But I can't do it,
because I can't hide it,
and the only one I want to hurt is me.
When I cut myself it hurts her too,
so it's not something I can do.
Yet God I truly want to bleed.
I'll pace and fret and stay awake.
Be antsy and edgy.
much as I crave,
that I won't do.