This is something I wrote to help me with the loss of my dad, and I am putting on here because maybe it will help, or make someone else smile, who lost someone they love..:
I close my eyes and smell the warm bay air, the sand feels good under my feet. I hear the sound of the bay water rippling, sounds like music.
I slowly begin to rise up into the sky, i am finally flying.I open my eyes and head for the stars, they are beautiful, shining and glimmering, each and everyone.
I smile as I pass each one, breathe in the fresh, cold, clean space air. I am flying faster and faster,passing thousands of beautiful stars.
I see a planet, with beautiful lit lights and huge structures. It is surrounded by rings of yellow and orange that make the planet glow, it is breathtaking.
I smile and wave as I fly by, in case someone, or something is watching. I am now flying higher and faster then comprehensible.
I can now see galaxy's, suns, planets and stars, all different shapes,colors and luminosities , it is beautiful. l wish everyone could see it.
Up ahead I see a spinning cluster of small stars, white and light blue, spinning so fast it looks impossible. I speed up, close my eyes, clench my jaw and fly in..Everything is black and silent.
Up ahead I see a faint,glimmering beautiful white light. It is approaching me and starting to form a shape.. It is my dad.
There is a white,glimmering light radiating from him and he is almost transparent.. He kisses me on the forehead,smiles and hugs me.He then turns around and points forward.
I look forward and see a huge screen, like in a theater.. I then see me and my sister playing in the sand and water on the bay, and my mom and dad smiling in the sun and waving at us.
An energy of love comes off the screen and fills my body. The screen continues to play moments of our lives, all the good and bad times, the energy of the love gets stronger and stronger.
The last images are of him being sick at home, i can feel him put his arm around me as I cry.
I see him in bed,my sister with him, then my mom with him and finally me with him, holding his hand.The final image is all of us hugging and kissing him as he passes on.
Then the screen turns off and he turns and looks at me and says, "its ok, its ok to cry and be upset, it's love.
The universe runs on love, from the smallest grain of sand, to the largest stars and planets.Love creates its own energy and the universe runs on it, the universe is alive.
We are not aware of the energy yet, as it is the next step of our being". " There is so much you still do not know.
The universe is teeming with life and all the life runs on love's energy, it spreads throughout the universes".
" You cannot see or hear me but you are surrounded by my love and energy, I will always be with you, no matter where you are".
"life and death is just one small part of our being, it is there to teach us how to love".
I then look at him and ask him, "why does it have to hurt so much, why does it have to feel so painful?" He looks at me again and says," how do you think oceans are formed?
How do you think mountains are are made? How do you think stars form and galaxies become alive? It comes from grieving.. He looks at me again and says it is time for him to go.
He says " remember, I am always with you, our love is a part of your being"..I tell him I love him one last time and kiss him goodbye.
He turns into a beautiful white, glimmering light again and slowly fades away till he disappears. I am not crying anymore, I am smiling.
I turn around and face the spinning circles of white and blue small stars. I close my eyes and fly through circle again.
When I open my eyes again, I am back on the bay, but now I am at the place that I watched on the screen with my dad. I smile and send another wave of loves energy into the universe.
Written by Michael Lazaro for my father, Nick Lazaro