What if your worst fear was heights? I'm not talking about roller coaster heights either; I'm talking plane height.
Now imagine this; your family is being held hostage, seven thousand feet below you, and the only way to save them is to jump from a plane seven thousand feet in the air.
What would you do? Many of you are probably thinking that I'm out of my mind. Well, yes, you would be right.
What I just described to you was a fear simulation I go through every day to overcome my fear. So far it hasn't worked.
I am always haunted by this fear, because I let my family die all because I was faced with this choice in reality, and well, I chose to stay in the plane instead of jumping.
I let my fear get in the way of my family and their safety. A day doesn't go by when I am not racked with guilt for my family's death knowing that I was the one that caused it.
That's why I go through the simulation everyday; I feel that by going through my fears and actually jumping I can actually have a chance at saving my family.
But what I always forget is that, death is irreversible. No one can reverse death.