Now as I lay here being rejected and told that they only want me for sex like everyone else, I am ready to get rid of all my humanity and become emotionless. I can't keep holding it all in. No this isn't a suicide attempt. This is me releasing. This is all I have now.
I told you and them all my secrets. I told you my worst fears and you became them. You knew everything, and it takes me years to open up, but with you I opened up in 2 days.
How am I supposed to react when you reject me and do everything everyone else did. you were supposed to be different. You said you were different...what happend?
Now i am laying here ready to flip that switch and be emotionless and not give a shit anymore. This is what it has all come to. I'm tired of the sadness, I'm tired of the pain of acting happy. I'm tired of lying. It's 4:08 AM i can't sleep and these are my last words before i flip the switch.