Numb for so long, that feelings overwhelmed me
Just starting to feel, whirling in the different sensations
Letting my heart taste the fleeing touch of love
Only to let heartache into my body, and overwhelming my mind
From nothing to crushed under the strain - I know not how to cope
How do people live like this, find reasons to smile and be merry, when on the inside they are torn apart
I almost miss the days of numbness, then I could just plaster on a fake smile, and all around me people where happy
Now the smiles takes a conscious effort, and I have to work not to worry people around me, work to just get up in the morning
I often ask my self, is it worth it ?
Worth the weight of all these burdening feelings?
But then I think, would I ever wish to rid myself of the memories of the growing love, rid myself of the times I was truly happy, and exchange them with a mask of carefully thought out emotions
The answer is simple and unwavering
No amount of heartache can make me want to forget